我有话想说。。。。。。。。。

慈，
My love，你讓我等最久 。。。。
最想要得夢，終於就要擁有 。。。。

愛，一直圍繞我。。。。
寂寞， 都是想你太多。。。

親愛的別哭 被愛是幸福 我當然是你的全部
眼痊是珍珠 我極峇一生去愛護。。。

My love 有愛是幸福 沒有才痛苦
多少人在羨慕
心 早就有所屬
真愛 不能反反覆覆 。。。

我是你想走的路
你忘不了的去不掉的人
你最在乎 。。。。


琪琪，

爹 迪 要 越 過 高 山 　
为 你 找 那 已 失 蹤 的 太 陽 和 月 亮 。。。。。。。

爹 迪 要 越 過 海 洋
为 你 找 那 已 失 蹤 的 彩 虹 和 抓 住 瞬 間 失 蹤 的 流 星。。。。。

爹 迪 要 飛 到 無 盡 的 夜 空，
摘 顆 星 星 作 你 的 玩 具。。。。。

還 要 親 手 觸 摸 那 月 亮，
在 上 面 寫 你 的 名 字 。。。。。。。

爹 迪 要 走 到 世 界 的 盡 頭
尋 找 傳 說 已 久 的 雪 人 　

還 要 用 盡 我 一 切 辦 法 　
讓 他 學 會 唸 你 的 名 字 。。。。。。

最 後 還 要 平 安 回 來，
回 來 告 訴 你 那 一 切

。。。。。。親 親 我 的 寶 貝

一直到。。。

日子 为了你们而过。。。。。
快乐 因为你们笑了。。。。。
生活 因为你们而存在。。。。

在这世界上 没有什么可以让我。。。。快乐。。。
只有你们的爱与宽怀。。。。让我站起来。。。

谢谢你们的爱。。。

爱，回来。。。。。。。。。。

很想说。。。。。。。。

琪琪，爹迪很想你　。。。　你是爹迪的未来。。。

老婆，你是我的将来。。。 谢谢你的支持。。。

You know what I did .........

It has been a week in am in IDLING mode.. long holidays... let's recap n see what i have done.
1. Went to the Thai restaurant, near my office area, and it was a good dinner...
2. Went to DASMAN, a supermarket and got myself some nice cheese spread and bread, and some yogurt drinks.
3. Went to MINANG Nasi Padang restaurant and it was good as well...
4. Went to LANDMARK mall.. Went to Villagio mall....
5. Tried Char Koay Teow, taste not bad... it would be perfect if got taugeh and chai por with it.. :)
6. Get to know that my best mate, Clement and Sabrina are expecting their first offspring in another 4 months.. happy for you Bro!!
7. Downloaded TONNS of movies....
8. Still considering to buy Canon G10 or Pana Lumix LX3 ....
9. Counting the days when i will be back to PG.. ( 40 days more ONLY!!)
10. Saw the first Rain in Doha, when i went to Corniche.
11. Saw the first rain shower the next day.
12. Feeling the cold of winter.

Hmmm.. that should sums up almost everything... For the food here, it is quite expensive compared to PG.. for example, the nasi padang that me and my fren had just now, it cost me about RM50... what we took was.. Eggs, chicken, vege for me, and rendang, Chicken and vege for my fren. But if u look at it, locally, one Nasi Goreng will cost you RM25.. so i guess it is worth it then??!!... :)

Starting to get use to the area here.. starts to familiarize with the road that leads me to office, to come back, to go to Doha old town...

These few days, went to a city or some sort like an old town of Doha, it is totally the oppostite of what i have seen so far... for me, this is the REAL QATAR.. i went to the city where old buildings are there, old shops, not much of Hummer, only normal cars... ( NO CAMEL LA!!)... and it is actually quite old school... the city for the OLD Doha ( i dun think it is a correct term but i like it this way ), is almost like our Penang street.. or Little India in Penang.. or if you are from SP, Pekan Lama.... I see LOTS and i do really mean LOTS of Labourers from Nepal and India in that area... I wish i have a cam to snap some pics but i do not have (yet!!).. Heard from my fren that the city will soon be demolished, to make way for more advance and new buildings.. what a waste.. i hope i can get some pictures of it.. before they tear the REAL Doha down...

Lots of contruction surrounds me at my apartment.. new buildings are being erected everyday... this shows, the pace of developing is quite fast... A colleague who use to work in Dubai, told me that this place is 20 yrs behind Dubai.. I have yet step my foot in Dubai so i cannot comment.. ahehehh....

Not sure what to cook for dinner tonite.. maybe will try Char Koay Teow again.. Tomorrow is a working day and then, off for 2 days again... :) Life is good in the month of December cause you get full pay, but work half the time... waddup!!

Lastly a quote that i get from a fren just now .. " It takes only 2 good men to stop doing what they do before the evil man takes over... " Ponder on it....

Alritey then.. thanks for reading.. god bless and hope all my frens are in good health and safe..

CIAO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sad? Who Sad?

A fren of mine, read my blog and ask me if i am sad in Doha.. and i do not like Doha.. that is ABSOLUTELY Untrue.. the place is ok.. job is good and pay.. what else can i say? :-P ... Me blogging is not to whine to the world on how sad i am in Doha, just some thought that randomly came to the frame... Everything is going on smoothly here except the fact that I miss my family ( come on.. it is normal, i am just here for merely a month and i have been with them most of my life ).... For those Friends who read my blog and feel sad.. dun be.. if u all know me well enuff, this is how i look at life.. I love writing about flashbacks and how i feel... Sometimes (??!!) I might be a bit of a negative creep ( a bit???) .... but I am doin ok here.. :) everyday i MSN or talk in Skype with my wife, my BB still knows who I am (*Phew...*) and calling me PAPA.. :) ...

Thanks for the friend who pointed out how my blog affects his feelings.. appreciate it.. and he actually cared about my situation in Doha.. Thanks to you, i got this job, i moved out from PG when the economy is bad, .. u did all you can to assist me.. You are a best mate... :) So don you worry about how me feeling. it is all up to me on how to adjust the mindset and focus on my objectives and priority ( which i am doin.. :-) )......

today i updated this blog 3 times!!! Imagine that... 3 times!!!

Let me go Home...... I wanna go home.....

After finished typing that last post... MTV played HOME on MTV.....

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Doha and Royal Plaza
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Cocoon.. Day 4

I am at apartment.. in my cocoon.. for Day 4.. doing absolutely nothing but surfing and BT-ing... manage to actually see DOHA's rain for the first time, experiencing Winter in desert area.. All these Emptiness.. actually makes u think about your life more and more... i am @ the quarter of my life, and looking back.. i am not sure what i have done.... till now, there are lot of things that is still fresh in my mind.. although it happened like maybe 10 yrs ago... Here is the list of "MOST" stuff tht i have done and how i feel about it..

Most Regretful things that I have done :
- Jumpin a red light once, with my mum as the pillion, almost kill both of us... This is the most regretful thing and the most stupidest thing i have ever done. I could still not forgive myself for this incident.

Most Happiest Day of my life :
- Father's day 2007, I knew my wife is pregnant with my baby.. I love kids but i would never thought that i would be a father... Thanks to my lovely wife, for the best ever present in my whole life..
- The arrival of Princess Kei Kei on Feb 15th 08.... what can I say.... there is no words in the world to describe the feeling..

Saddest day of my life :
- Feb 15th 08 : Seeing my wife in the labor room.. suffering to give birth.. seeing some you loved so much, suffering.. is torturing...
- My Grandma leaving me - My grandma,( mum's side ) left without seeing me getting married and she did not manage to see my daughter..
- Wife's grandma ( mum's side) left without seeing Kei Kei as well...
- A few weeks back, knowing that my cousin, Jeanie has a cancer and it is in critical stage..
- Nov 11th - leaving my dearest wife and BB and family while i leave for Doha....

All these Flashback.. makes u wonder.. how long i would remember all this? I wish i would remember all this to keep reminding me on what i have done, and what i need to do....

As always, in this emptiness, i miss my wife and baby soo much..

Leaving your family is not a painful thing, Missing them is......

MY wife reminded me on someting.. on how long i did not hug her the way she wants me to hug her... the Koala hug... i am not sure how long has it been as well.. soemetimes, you tends to take things for granted and until it is too late....

Last week, i was kinda sadden by a comment made by a friend to me.. she says that she never sees me as a family man cause i am able to leave my very young daughter and wife behind and work so far... I was actually kinda hurt by that comment.. but one of my frens in Doha, a wise man says to me " We are doing a noble thing by providing food and shelter for your family" .. those words keeps me going.. and with the support from my Family.. i will stay focus and achieve my objective very fast... so that i can go back and spend my life with my family again...

I remember one of my best mate, who gave me this advise when i was in doubt... "remember, every decision you make, no matter stay or go, is a right decision"... Thanks Hooi for the comment, not sure you meant it or not(hehehe).. but i get the idea behind it..

anyhow.. 2 more days of EMPTINESS for me here.. will update again if i feel like it... :) .. for all my frens, i wish you all good health and happy always.. all of you are in my prayers day by day..

Corniche... Nice place in Doha

Pics from Corniche and Villagio Mall....

View from apartment Part 2... checkout the Hummer @ Roadside..

View from my Apartment...

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For my Kei Kei...

Oh my princess, your eyes is like diamonds, sparkling and nice...
My lovely lil princess, you are like the fire in the winter, bringing warmth to the whole family,
You are Cold ice is the summer, bringing joy to the family,
I still remember the day that i know you came into the family, it was Eve of father's day 2007...
I was thinking, how would my lovely BB be?
Will she be naughty, will she be happy, will she be merry?
All the insecurity struck me, Will I be a good father? will you be a good BB ?
All this insecurity left me, when I first hear your cries from the labor room..
It makes me happy when i see u smile.. it makes me sad when i see u frown,
My dear princess, Daddy loves you with all Daddy could possibly can.... I miss you my Notti Kei Kei... i miss you so much...Just remember, Daddy loves you with all my heart... ALL MY HEART...

For my wife....

I am in my room, but it ain my home;

Outside the window, I see a nice view, but it ain't perfect without you;

Lie on the big bed with four pillow for my head, how i miss the feeling of 2 heads on the pillow, in my small little bed;

My body is itching, for your sweet soft kiss...

I am dying, need you to help me to breathe....

Miss your groans and moans, while my hand runs through your hair...

Miss your teeth while you sink it in my arm,

I love you my lovely wife, with not just my current life, if possible, whenever I am alive..

I miss you darling.. I miss you ....

UPDATES - after being scold by wife on no updates..

Hi there folks, it is me again, your frenly botak... ahehahehah it has been few days since i update the blog.. i am getting use to the environement here.. work is ok.. not bad.. went to an off-site call Ras Laffan on Tuesday and it was really a trip.. i manage to see the REAL desert (without camel. darn!) along the highway.... Desert is really a BLANK place.... totally nothing... crazy man... i wonder how the rattle snake, the lizard all can survive in such a BLANK place.. ahehaehheh Although i am getting use to the environment here, something is still missing.. my wife sleeping beside me at nite... and waking up in the middle of the nite to make milk for my princess... i miss that a lot....

I was suppose to be PAID today but my salary was delayed till next month cause i miss the payroll date ( )... Talked to boss and HR.. they agree to gimme my 50% of salary advance... i dun really need much money here but i wanna send them home ...

Heard from my wife, my cousin, Jeanie, got back from SG to PG... the reason.. her cancer is getting worse... wtf man.. how can someone like her kena cancer while those fuckers out there who kill, torture or even racist people alive and kicking ?? Makes me wonder, where is GOD now? I wanted to pray for her to have a speedy recovery although she is kinda critical... but who shall i pray to ? Allah, Buddha, Jesus or Dalai Lama? WHO??

Economy is getting bad nowadays.. when i read the star, in Malaysia, people kill people.. snatch thieves hacking people... robbing.. raping.... what is goin on? Where are all the politicians, who promised a better tomorrow?? is this it?? this is our TOMORROW? wow!!

Now.. back to an issue which has bug me like forever.. MAS... our very own MH - Malaysian Hospitality Airline... one airline that does not alllow cancellation... eventhough the ticket is 2 months away.. Reason? THIS IS A  LOW FARE TICKET. IF YOU DON'T TRAVEL, YOU HAVE TO BURN IT... WOW.. i am dumbfucked and suprised... I wish your company STAY GOOD IN ECONOMY N UR MANAGEMENT PEOPLE MONEY FULL FULL... I wonder how much money will the government pump in to let such GREAT company afloat in the current crisis? according to what i believe and see... as much as they can cause it contains the MALAYSIAN PRIDE....

Day 4

Today is the day where I moved to Ezdan tower.. nice from the outside but inside. OK OK nia la.. haehaheah

Finally manage to buy groceries from Carrefour - about 3km from the apartment..

Noticed one thing - Porsche Cayenne S in Doha is equilevant to the amount of CR-V in Penang.. ahehaehaeh .....

Miss my BB and Wife so much... as much as the desert miss the rain......

3 days in Doha...

today is Friday which is an off day in Doha.. I will be moving on to apartment tomorrow..
Nothing really happen much today except that i watched movie the whole day in bed.. and makan also in bed.. :) ordered room service.. cause too lazy to move....

Thursday itself - 2nd day of work, finally got the chance to move around the office and was introduced to all the personnel in the company. All seems to be very nice person.. :) I am still learning the way of the company. Was assigned a ticket to help out an ang mo boss about his comp that i need to settle it on tuesday.. Heard that the person is a VIP.. need some serious attention to it.... oh well.... Receive a lot of people asking me on how am i doin here.. Thanks for al the brothers and sisters who posted in Facebook asking about my situation.. it kinda makes u feel good.. with people asking how you are doing.... the moral support is very much kinda needed..

Got myself a cellphone prepaid card call HALA... and it cost me QR50 ( about RM50), it is cheap cause my colleague all got it for QR200 before this ( they are having some promo and shit..) if anyone of you wanna text me, you can text me @
+9746269026. If you wanna call me.. add 00 in front ( if you are from Malaysia )...

Booked my ticket to travel back to PG on 23rd of Jan ( 4 days before CNY ) and will be coming back to Doha on 6th of Feb ( 2 weeks vacation ).. fast eh? heahehaeh cost me about RM4k+ for the whole round trip... (ouch) but for my BB and family, it is not the money that matters.....

Tomorrow ( Sat ) will be one of my buddies's wedding day + nite but i am not able to make it.. Here i wishes Ah Fer ( Kar Heng ) - WHITE HEAD TILL OLD.. I really feel bad that i am not able to make it..

I really missed my BB and wife.. seeing them in webcam, is enought to ease about 5% of "missingness" to them.... I love you my beautiful angel, Hew Kei and my ever supportive and ever greatest wife, Huey Chir with all my life... I would never know how I am goin to live without the love and support from them and my family.. Their love and their support keeps me goin and alive... 67 days more to go.. 2 months and one week more to go...

To all who read this, I love you all and thanks for all the wishes and thanks for reading my Yada Yada... :) God Bless and Insya-Allah that all is well ... ;)

Safe and sound in Doha

touch down in Doha this morning and was guided through the immigration process by a lady from a company, which was assigned to help through the immigration...

Reached Ramada hotel, and had a good bath, and then had a big breakfast... then slept for about 4 hours...

taken to office @ around 1pm, and met with the team.. mostly all are expats.. :) it is kinda nice place to work.....

one tihng that bothers me .. is how i miss my wife and BB... you will never know how much u miss them.. until you are away from them...

Countdown : 4 days to go

Very mix emotion on what to expect.. and how would react when in Airport.. many people said that they would go to Airport to see me cry ( which i would ) but not sure how many will turn up... Anyhow... Lots of frens who are willing to spend some time with me, for dinner or beer session, makes me feel glad that i have Frens.. TOmorrow is my BD.. got a Man U trainning jersey from me wife..

To me, the best birthday present, FOR LIFE = My daughter and the mother of my daughter, which is my supportive and understanding wife... I love you all to my last breath on earth..